April 1st: Can you believe April is here already? The weather has been very confusing all year long but I can be positive this summer is going to be a warm one.
Now don’t get me wrong. Just because I’m going to spend the next 12 weeks chasing after my summer body don’t assume I haven’t been working at it. I’m chasing my summer body 24/7/365. Always remember this, you can spend two hours in the gym working hard, but there are still 22 other hours in the day that can undo all the good you did during your workout.
I’m pretty big on accountability. I haven’t been the most disciplined throughout my fit journey, but I think keeping this FitJournal will help me out. It will be published every FitFriday and will contain about 2-3 entries from the week. Honesty is the best thing I can do. I’m chasing greatness and I’m also attempting to be a positive example for the people around me.
I didn’t workout today, I’ll get back to it on Monday (April 3rd). Going to have to hit the grocery store tomorrow and get some food. Eating out has been my biggest problem all along. You don’t lose your stomach without fixing your nutrition habits. So that’s really what I’m hoping to correct the most over the next 12 weeks.
Realistically it probably won’t happen cause that type of weight gain will take time. But let’s see how close I can get.
April 3rd: Monday’s are for chest! Me and my training partner linked up and had a quick chest session. We pulled some ideas from Arnold’s Blueprint to Mass since we didn’t have much time for a full workout. 5 sets on bench press. The first set was 30 reps, followed by 12, 10, 8, and 6. This isn’t the video of Monday’s session, but it looks just like this (this is from last week).
April 4th-5th: Days like today are a crucial reminder of why meal prepping is so important. So a couple weeks ago, I took on the first shift at my job. Now I wake up at 4:30 am and have to be to work by 6 am. Waking up isn’t the hardest part (trust and believe it is difficult though), eating breakfast has become a task. Since I’m pretty much wide awake by 7 am, it’s become extremely hard to skip breakfast altogether.
So I’ve reverted back to my old ways of stopping and grabbing some breakfast from one of the fast-food joints in the area. It’s usually Bojangles or Chick Fil A. And sure, the food may taste good… but this belly. This damn belly is suffering. And it isn’t just suffering from my breakfast decisions, it’s suffering from the poor judgment I tend to make day in and day out.
I’ve been binge eating for almost 4 straight weeks now. Early in March, I feel victim to a stomach virus that kept me in my bed for 5 days. I lost a lost of fluids that week and oh yeah, I didn’t eat anything for 5 straight days. I was the epitome of miserable. So when the Monday of the next week rolled around and I was finally able to eat, I went in. I figured one day wouldn’t hurt me because one day of healthy eating doesn’t fix you, the same way one day of bad eating doesn’t “ruin” you.
Well boy! I was so wrong it’s quite hilarious. It wasn’t just one day like I thought it would be, I ate out every single day. Besides the fact it’s tough on my pockets, my belly started growing again.
It’s fucking hard to make progress. But it’s so much easier to lose it. Even knowing this the eating continued.
Emotional eating can best be described as turning to food for comfort when facing stress or any other difficult problems. It can be consciously or unconsciously. For me, it was conscious. I understood what I was doing. I just kept telling myself tomorrow would be better. But shit happens in life. The week after I got healthy, a rather unfortunate series of anxiety attacks for various reasons occurred, causing me to eat more. My motivation has suffered recently because I know my eating has been some shit. You can’t outwork a bad diet, that’s the truth. So I’ve felt like I been going through the motions during my workouts.
April 8th: TGIF. It’s been a long week and I’m happy it’s damn near over.
Me and the trainer had a great session. Warmed up on the stairmaster for about 7 minutes, cranked out 100 push-ups and then we got after it.
Today’s workout was great in the sense that it reminded me why I grind. My motivation had been suffering the last few days but today was difficult enough that I was damn proud (and relieved) when I finished.
I made a mistake by deciding to weigh myself at the end of my workout. My trainer corrected me and let me know that I should have done it before. But this is where we are currently sitting at now:
Saturday I’m going to have to hit the grocery store and start meal prepping for the work week. No more fast food. Need to eliminate certain foods out of my diet for 30 days.